When you have a pressing need to create something but you just can’t flow your ideas out!


I want to write! Scratch that! I NEED to write. I CRAVE so much to write the stories jumping around in my head.

I want to Paint! I ITCH to pick up my brush and paint. It’s a whirlwind of art in my head. But every time I dive in to pick one image and put it down, it just slips away like an eel… And a new image swims by, beckoning like the last unreachable one!

Photo by Gabriel Matula on Unsplash


I want to write poetry so much about life, womanhood, Girl-child, love, heartbreak, poverty, bliss, health, death and the mechanics of living!

I feel these emotions strongly!

I feel these beauties within!

It’s like trying to scream in a dream! I feel it like a burden on my soul.

This is not just a writers block, this is more like creative block🤐.

I don’t think anyone can help me besides me. 🤦🏾‍♀sigh!

I’ve tried a lot of things; solitude, music, change of environment, visit to galleries … but it’s not working😤😤.

(Note to self: 🤔Maybe a walk on the beach at twilight would help! 🧘🏾‍♀🧘🏾‍♀)


Until something unusual liberates this cage of ideas, I’ll keep adding more; more emotions, more ideas, strong emotions, opinions, thoughts; whether stacked or scattered, refined or raw, confusing or clear, questions or answers…

On notepads everywhere, phone, laptop and desk, I’ll keep dropping hints of these ideas.

I’ll keep accommodating them. Creating more space for the chaos. Until it gets too heavy… too much to bare.

I know someday, very soon, it will all come pouring out like a Tsunami. Tearing apart all hindrances and blocks to overflow.

And voila!

The magic will light up my world!

Photo by Darius Bashar on Unsplash

#magic #creative #mindblock #art #unburden #diaryofanunusualgirl



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